Monday, May 02, 2005

Bedtime

What time is bedtime? (rhetorical, no answer required)

I'm still awake, getting terrorised by a single mosquito which i can't wrap my hands around, this hot and humid night... thinking of you. "You" are my friends who will probably not get to read this post for a long time to come. Not because you don't care to read it but because i didn't give you this blog address; Just too bad.

Why didn't i give the blog address to you?
Maybe because what i'm writing here isn't my life and i don't want you to reveal the truth.
Maybe because i don't want you to look at me differently when you meet me because of what you read/see in this blog.
Maybe because i don't want you to know the online me, the ill-confidenced, lonely, unsure me.
Maybe, just maybe.

To those of you reading this...
i honestly don't know whether you can consider yourself privileged to be reading this, or whether you're considered distant enough from me that i am willing to share the address with you; but whatever the case i'd like to say thanks for even bothering to read this ramble. Here's a love song from me to you, if you're my friend:

To Make You Feel My Love by Garth Brooks
When the rain is blowing in your face, and the whole world is on your case
I would offer you a warm embrace, To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear, and there is no one to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years, To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet, But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met, No doubt in my mind where you belong
I'd go hungry, I'd go blind for you, I'd go crawling down the aisle for you
There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do, To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on a rolling sea, Down the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free, But you ain't seen nothing like me yet
There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do, Go to the ends of the earth for you
Make you happy, make your dreams come true, To make you feel my love

To listen to this song:
1) stop the currently playing song
(right click the square of the currently playing song, then choose "stop"; or just press "Esc")
2) right click this square , then choose "play"
Note: QuickTime required to listen

I should mention that this is a 5am post...

8 Comments:

Anonymous jules da brat said...

*ahahhaa* you you you... adorable friend. give yourself some credit sometime and yeah - don't forget me when you enter the navy, so i can come around and get you some mcdonalds - the whole menu in fact. can't imagine the endless amount of fun we'll have with burgers at a navy open house....

i love you very much, and will be here if you need anything.... you're a man who deserves everything you get. life isn't fair. but who cares? it's the friends like me that count.

Mon May 02, 09:26:00 AM  
Blogger ying said...

just wondering.. who is the "you" u are talking abt.. care to share.. lol.. me very kpo.. :D and thanx for the songs too from the "index".. they are super nice.. seems to talk abt yr life too isnt it.. :p

Mon May 02, 10:16:00 AM  
Blogger Sandra Ng said...

hey....



Online you, RL you. How different are they? :)

Mon May 02, 12:51:00 PM  
Blogger Dank said...

Jules > Dank thanks you for those nice words. Mac's onboard? Sure, if Dank has the time to even rest abit to eat. He'll be busy like crazy, but it's worth a try. Life ain't fair always, or never, depending how you look at it. Most times Dank thinks it's not fair, but what can we do? Live on and pay it forward.

Mysterious > The "You" referred to "Dank's friends who would probably not get to read this post", as defined in that entry; No one in particular, but everyone in general. You're welcome for the songs. Indeed they are wonderfully beautiful, and yes they reflect the life Dank is currently in. Dank requests you to leave a name/nick next time please?

Sandra > Hello, thanks for dropping by again, Dank is honoured to have you here. Online vs RL, how different? Everything or nothing at all, depending on how you see it; perspective, in relation to, and through experience. Photos and songs: it's as close as you'll get to the real Dank. BlogEntries: it's ultimately Dank, but. =) Admittedly Dank doesn't know himself all that well. He's just trying to be himself online but with a lot more thought into his alphabets.

This is the first post Dank's got more than 1 person commenting, and within 4 hours no less...
-celebrate- haha

Mon May 02, 02:26:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

hey hey.. heh i love the song :) aniwae.. maybe daniel should not be afraid of letting his frens know who he really is.. i dont think they'll look at you in a different light coz daniel is who daniel is.. and daniel's friends should and will accept daniel for who he is.. heh *hug*

sorry jennifer talking a lot of nonsense..

Mon May 02, 10:17:00 PM  
Blogger ying said...

hhahahahha.. yes yes indeed.. forget to put my name.. lol.. but its me, weiying la.. doink!!! send songs to so many girls until u forget.. lol.. its ok, buddy.. i understand. n ya wat jen said, its true.. ppl wont look at u in a different light.. ppl want to see the real u.. they will love u even more.. agreed.. :D tt is how we became frens, isnt it? gd frens? eh? hahah.. :D

Mon May 02, 10:26:00 PM  
Anonymous (un)real said...

You talk about the real you, the different light(s).
you- do you know, You?

The real you? The fake me.
The real me? The fake you.

Even if we are real sometimes we think we are fake.
Yet when we fake, we do think its partly real.

Me.
I'm real, real person in this fake world-
Fake world of hypocrites, or lies and affection
Me.
I'm fake, fake person in this real world. Entangled-
Real world of friends, love and family?

Me, You, the Real, the Fake.
Or maybe just an fabricated conjecture.

Tue May 03, 12:39:00 AM  
Blogger Dank said...

JeN > It's not nonsense, it's your point of view. Dank's got lots of time these past two weeks, thus he's been thinking lots; good and bad. Oh well... time will take it and make it well, hopefully.

Buddy > eh Dank recommends those songs to his guy friends too ok! Good songs must share, you really think Dank is that bias meh?

(un)real > Dank can't agree more: what's real, and what's fake?

People are all confused inside, and it's the asking of such questions that help us realise who we are, or who we are not. Dank's got nothing better to do these days therefore he's thinking who he is to himself and to the others around him.

Thanx for your un/real post, though Dank would appreciate a name to associate with the post.

Tue May 03, 02:25:00 AM  

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